Madelyn Jane

As I slowly find my style and mold into the artist I dream to be, I find myself feeling so much more connected to my work and to my clients. This session and this family touched me deeply.  Their connection and love were easy and seamless.  This is what a newborn baby and her little family should look like, right? 

Now before I go any further, I would just like to say that I wrote something similar to this last night... and quickly deleted it.  It was too personal.  Then today, I spoke with a friend who had similar struggles and she said, "No one talks about it."  And I knew I had to rewrite this and share.

So... as happy as these images make me (and they really really do), they also take me back to a pretty painful time.  As some of you who are close to me know, I struggled greatly after my daughter was born, with post-partum depression.  It was awful.  I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.  It was dark, painful, lonely, terrifying and shameful.  And as I look back at that time in our lives, one thought really consumes me... how much of this precious time I missed.  I yearned to be THIS family, connected, happy and in love.  Now I don't write this because I want pity... and I don't often dwell on it... but every now and then, I do look back, and it hurts.

Here's what I know now:  I was not alone.  There was help.  Not every post-partum course is the same.  I am SO glad that I reached out and asked for that help.  And I will forever be grateful for my husband's support and love during that excruciating time. 

Now enough of the lows.... back to the highs.  There really is nothing sweeter than a precious new life born into a family full of love.  This is one lucky little girl. <3